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astro_noms) wrote2012-11-19 11:30 am
astro_noms) wrote2012-11-19 11:30 am
what is a "sunlight"?
So I deleted my Facebook accounts, both the one I was using and then one I'd made for secretly friending people who weren't family or classmates or work-related people. And then I went back through my e-mail addresses and checked that I didn't have any other ones. My mom sent me an e-mail a while back (after I first deactivated my account) that was all NOOOO DON'T LEAAAAAVE, but yeah, no. The people I actually *want to interact with are on Twitter/Tumblr/DW/LJ, and the main thing Facebook was doing was frustrating me. Plus, I was starting to get dangerously close to some of the streams crossing, and as much as I love my family, my DW/LJ is definitely not something I want them to see.
One of the reasons I'd love to come back here after I'm done with my degree is that I'd have to get my ass in gear and actually find a job that paid well enough to support myself. If I stay in Poland, it'll be for another two years while I do my master's (oh god, I'd have to decide what I want to do, and possibly come up with a research project thingy for a thesis, I mean, I could do it, my English major bullshit-fu is strong, but jfc, what do I do then? It's not like there are a lot of job opportunities for English majors in English-speaking countries, and this is Poland we're talking about), and I'll still be dependent on my parents financially. Any job I could get in Poland wouldn't earn me enough to rent a room, let alone a place of my own, plus cover food/utilities/everything else. Not if I was going to school full time.
There's translation work, and I'm gradually getting better at it, but at the moment, my best chances with that are with a translation company, which pays freelance rates, and doesn't actually offer a proper contract, only a work for hire one, which means you pay taxes, but nothing gets docked for your insurance premiums or retirement fund or anything else. Which, when the time to retire finally does roll around, means that you're fucked, because if you do only work for hire, it's basically the equivalent of not working at all in the eyes of the retirement fund.
And let's face it, I can do that kind of translation work from anywhere. And if I could pick up a job somewhere here, then I could finally get away from being on my parents' dime. At this point, I'm getting more and more frustrated with being in Poland, with depending on my parents for support, and with not having a job, and whatever else, being in school and getting a master's won't mean anything if I'm miserable in every other aspect of my life.
It'd be a hard transition to make, and it's possible that the best option is to go back, do my master's, try to save up, and then move here (or wherever), but I don't know anymore. The way I feel about going back to Poland is how I felt about my job in Canada towards the end - it's the "safe" option, because my family *will support me and help out, but it's also going to be slowly sucking out my will to live.
One of the reasons I'd love to come back here after I'm done with my degree is that I'd have to get my ass in gear and actually find a job that paid well enough to support myself. If I stay in Poland, it'll be for another two years while I do my master's (oh god, I'd have to decide what I want to do, and possibly come up with a research project thingy for a thesis, I mean, I could do it, my English major bullshit-fu is strong, but jfc, what do I do then? It's not like there are a lot of job opportunities for English majors in English-speaking countries, and this is Poland we're talking about), and I'll still be dependent on my parents financially. Any job I could get in Poland wouldn't earn me enough to rent a room, let alone a place of my own, plus cover food/utilities/everything else. Not if I was going to school full time.
There's translation work, and I'm gradually getting better at it, but at the moment, my best chances with that are with a translation company, which pays freelance rates, and doesn't actually offer a proper contract, only a work for hire one, which means you pay taxes, but nothing gets docked for your insurance premiums or retirement fund or anything else. Which, when the time to retire finally does roll around, means that you're fucked, because if you do only work for hire, it's basically the equivalent of not working at all in the eyes of the retirement fund.
And let's face it, I can do that kind of translation work from anywhere. And if I could pick up a job somewhere here, then I could finally get away from being on my parents' dime. At this point, I'm getting more and more frustrated with being in Poland, with depending on my parents for support, and with not having a job, and whatever else, being in school and getting a master's won't mean anything if I'm miserable in every other aspect of my life.
It'd be a hard transition to make, and it's possible that the best option is to go back, do my master's, try to save up, and then move here (or wherever), but I don't know anymore. The way I feel about going back to Poland is how I felt about my job in Canada towards the end - it's the "safe" option, because my family *will support me and help out, but it's also going to be slowly sucking out my will to live.